Lorna, I’m so sorry for all the pain I caused you. I’m sorry I lied to you, you never seen the real me but I got to know you, how kind, beautiful and perfect you are. The few months I got to know you, I fell for you and I fell for you hard. The short time we spoke I loved every second of it, even the arguements now because I still spoke to you. Every day hurts more and more. People say it should get easier but it really hasn’t. I distract myself from the pain but it always comes back. I know you’ve told me yourself to move on and I’m trying but every little thing is reminding me of you. I can’t even watch the weather without feeling sick at the mention of Portsmouth. I know I should leave this but the guilt is too much and I seen what you wrote on your tumblr about Chris I’m so sorry. I really am, if I could change things for you I honestly would in a heart beat. I love you more than anything and miss you more and more each day. My heart hurts just thinking about you